i havent said anything here in a while and i feel like this is the best place to talk about your dayz and situation... well ive been doin very well for a while.... one person i havent talked about in here is my girlfriend.... she was my best friend at first then i started to see her more than just a friend.... i would speak to her on the phone like everyday... it wasnt normal to talk to a friend everyday... especially when its a girl... i would even speak to her even though if she would be out of town.... it was weird if i didnt speak to her for a day.... it was as if i needed to talk to her in order to complete my day.... if i dont talk to her, i feel like my day just isnt complete.... i would talk to her till like 4 in the morning almost every night of the week.... i would wake up tired and sleepy but i would feel so good at the same time.... it was sooo weird... i fell in love with her as time passed by.... it was unusual for me to fall for someone that fast.... the weird thing about too was that i havent even seen her yet.... yah i know what the heck am i thinking.... well what got me is the way we talked.... i got to know her.... and i got to know how she really is... everything about her over the phone... we had many funny and serious conversations.... it was hard to tell her how i really felt.... and i know she doesnt feel the same way beacause she kept on telling me that she deosnt like me everytime i would ask if she had any feelings for me.... she also would say that she cant have a boyfriend.... i never gave up though, i tried and tried to try get her to like me.... it seemed impossible for a while.... then, one day i met another girl... i started to talk to her for a while... she was so aggressive and she liked me so much, she put me in the position that if i dont get with her, i cant talk to her anymore... i was confused so i said why not.... i went out with her for a while then i just had to let her go beacuse she just didnt have what i was looking for.... at the time i was still talking to the girl i started to talk to at first.... when i told her i broke up with my ex, the conversation i got out of her was the truth.... she told me everything... on how she really felt about me... she told me that she liked me for a while now and she just didnt wana tell.... she was hurt for the fact that i went out with another girl while i was talking to her... i didnt know that beacause she kept on saying that she had no feelings for me... that night we had the most serious talk... i asked her a question that night that i've been meaning to ask.... i asked her what she would say if i asked her out.. she told me i would never know unless i actually ask... so i did and got an answer i didnt expect.... so from that moment i was goin out with her.... i was happy yet the same cause i already know her and have been talking to her for a while now... when i actually got to see which was like a day after... i was happy to see her and happy to know she was mine.... but as we got to really know each other, i found out some things that i wasnt comfortable with.... it was as if she had other things to deal with... her friends are a big part of her life and i dont blame her... its just i dont like it when i take girls seriously and they dont... thats what really bothered me.... i am taking her seriously but she doesnt want too.... i tell her how i trully feel and everything and how i want a future with her someday but she just doesnt feel the same way i do.... thats what hurts.... i know i truly love her and yet she doesnt take me seriously.... sometimes i feel like im just there.... only there to fill in when im needed.... well the only way to find out is time.... i guess i'll just see if we last or not.... its just basically up to her.... i guess i'll find out there if she really wanna take me seriously..... time will tell...